I have decided to leave certain title behind instead of staying stagnant just because I can. I believe everyone is tied to job title, roles, responsibilities that makes them feel there is more to it than that. I have been in this limbo for maybe 5years now and I am sick of being where I am.
The classic “sick of being sick and tired”
To begin with I don’t enjoy being a personal trainer anymore. I am more engaged in writing, creating some sort of thing rather than being in a gym floor and counting reps, motivating people, worst part, being a therapy for my clients. In my thoughts, I feel like I am their “bitch” or “slave” and it doesn’t feel good at all.
I have tried to look at it at different prespective, be positive, finding silver lining BUT GOD I cannot stand people who complain about doing the most basic thing lik exercising and stretching. I can’t do it no more. I’ve had 9-5jobs and i feel being a pt is soul sucking as much.
DECIDE.
I decide to no longer do it. I still have clients but I no longer want to build my base of clients and looking forward to different path. A path that I enjoy and want to be pull forward to doing. I realise I love being an athlete, music performance, writing and reading. So this is a start. That is why I created this blog and my other blog. You can follow my other work
https://iboxingskills.com/blog/
YOU CAN DOESN”T MEAN YOU SHOULD
I read it somewhere and this hits me hard. I like helping people because deep down, I would want someone to help me too. Then again I have a saving people energy, I offer advice, lent my shoulder to them while my life is constantly in chaos. I create inventory in my own life and see which part of my life needs deep cleaning. I know I can help people but I don’t want to anymore hahaha.
WAYS I FOUND …
I found out different ways of who I am and start from there, I use astrology reading, Human Design, GeneKeys and it was all accurate of who I truly am. These are tools and how I know if they are accurate. When I read my profile it was all accurate and a sense of calm, grounding feeling sits well within me. that is how I know! I use these tools to navigate myself out of this funk. The more I deny it the more irritated I get. So I surrender and let go my old profile that I created with my mind. Now I want alignment so this way my actions move towards who I truly am.
I don’t know where you at in your life now but if you are sick and tired of it , feels dead inside your soul, maybe DECIDE not to feel like this anymore is a start? A restart is possible for ANY age.
Your honesty here is powerful, and it takes real courage to acknowledge when a title or role no longer fits. Letting go isn’t failure—it’s growth. Five years of feeling stuck would drain anyone, and choosing to step toward alignment is a huge win. The clarity you’re gaining through writing, performance, and self-exploration shows you’re moving toward a life that actually energizes you. You’re right: just because we can do something doesn’t mean we should sacrifice our well-being for it. Your decision to stop building your client base and pursue what feels authentic is inspiring. A restart really is possible at any age, and your story proves it. Thanks for sharing your journey so openly; it encourages others to trust their own inner shifts.
It does takes courage and often times confusing as well. You’re welcome!