Fading away.

I can feel I am fading away. Not just burn out but from living split on the inside and outside. I can barely talk to people. Everything seems wrong. Feels like being happy seems too far away from me. Tears followed by rage then by sadness.

Then I laugh real loud with other people and I feel it again.

It feels like bad cycle. Like a constant wheel. Everyday but no one knows.

Some days I feel like I am not enough.

I look at the mirror, I feel like I am grieving about something.

This exhaustion is familiar. Am I even good of a mother?

Why can’t i be more aligned? i lost my will to do anything.

Have you ever felt like this?